merry christmas

oh well...

since my parents busy...

I guess its fine if I didn't get any from them...

but...

I little bit disappoint too...

and a little bit jealous at my friends...

=/
so I think I gonna buy for myself a present...

lol...

by the way

happy belated merry Christmas...

i think...=)

and happy new year

let go of you

It better to move on and let go...
It just waste of time standing at there...
you knows he never look back...
but,he just go away...

since he is in a relationship...
you just stands there and watch them...
and wishing them to be happy together...
with a stone deeply in your heart...

after realize that you can't stuck in here for long...
you move one step backward...
sooner or later you will have 'nothing'
and that time It full of pains

and now,you watching the couple with a smile...
wishing them''be happy together''...
with a energetic voice that come from your heart...
and a pleasure

you leave a piece of love in your heart...
to let it be your memorize forever...
to keep watching the boy...
but never fall in love with him...

my feeling

I want to quit this game
but I can't
It hurt when thinks about the past
and all the miracle happen
I don't want the love to end
because I afraid to forget you
but I do want to end
because I have nothing to wait for
I confuse and hurt

If could...
I wish I didn't even born...

holiday kindda boring=/

nothing to do in the holiday...
just stay in my room...
and do other stuff...like
typing blog
clean my room everyday
sleeping
do exercise
meet my friends
go hang out(my money T^T)
day dreaming
watching TV
and fighting with my brothers
lastly,the most important one is
jumping on the bad like maniac...
that my everyday routine...
THE END=D

FSN ♥

FSN rock

although they just got second place...
but they awesome!!!

WHY

I can't help it...
why I'm so like an idiot...
he not worth to cry.........was he?!

why?!
when I think about him...
It make me cry??

why?!
when I ''visit'' his page
It make me hurt...

we didn't even start yet

why...
I get this kind of pathetic feeling?

why?
when I'm have this feeling...
It's make me feel very...very...
ANNOYING!!!

friendship

though miles may lie between us
we are never far apart
for friendship it doesn't count miles
it measured by heart

♥my love♥

I'm trying hard to forget you...

I just wish you extinct in my life...

I wish it just happen as a dream...

but,I can't...because

I happy to know you...

I happy to love you...

I happy to miss you...

just one word to say...

''I love you...

I miss you...''

EVERYDAY,with no regret...^^

football tournament

although that we lose in the football tournament...(girl n boy team)
but please don't give!!!
thanks for all the support^^
to my friends and dearest teacher...
even we didn't win...
still...I'm so proud of our team...
you shows me...
''all for one and one for all'' this word...

2011 football tournament
we come!!!

thanks for making my life this cheerful...
thanks for everything...
I love J1H ping forever!!!

friendship n love

Friendship is a quiet walk in the park with the one you trust

Love is when you feel like you are the only two around

Friendship is when they gaze into your eyes and you know they care

Love is when they gaze into your eyes and it warms your heart

Friendship is being close even when you are far apart

Love is when you can still feel their hand on your heart when they are not near

Friendship is hoping that they experience the very best

Love is when you bring them the very best

Friendship occupies your mind

Love occupies your soul

Friendship is knowing that you will always try to be there when in need

Love is when you will give up everything to be at their side

Friendship is a warm smile in the winter

Love is a warming touch that sends a pulse through your heart

Friendship can survive without love

Love cannot live without friendship

luv yah

我比较喜欢默默地站在你的身边
为你加油...打气
这样的我...另每天越来越爱你...
站在那边的我...
有时会觉得很不爽...
因为...不能与你交往...
可是我没有勇气让你认识我...
所以才这样做...

没办法...这样也好...^^

during the holiday

my head is dizzy...my stomach is hurt...my body in 38 degree...
and I feel like gonna to puke...

went to the library...borrow some books...
the sickness come again(I HATE U...VIRUS)...because the library has air-con!!!
haih~=(

reading some comic book...
then makes my eye teary...why I'm so emotional,sensitive
but...I continue to cry =)

receive some message that have football practice...
OH NO...
I can't attend...but I don't want to be a lazy bug...
so practice with my old friends...
then in the middle of the game...
suddenly I fainted...X_X

feeling very empty now

feel very empty now...
just listening songs that just brought...

*thinking while crying*

my heart so much in pain...
I let my feeling caring my soul...
let it take me...float to dreamland...
have a blank stare...
I'm not myself today...

*thinking part*

why all things that belong to me...
hate me??!!
I didn't owe their something...
feels like ''Why you even born to the earth''

*crying part*

I don't know why...
I like suffering though this night...
I'm so weak...
It's very hurt...very strong emotions have controlled me...

^^

"I like to be a free spirit. Some don't like that, but that's the way I am."

I hear the wind call my name

A sound that leads me home I know the road is long

And your heart is worry Yet,I still hopping

Your heart will wait still

For as long as my melody echoes To my heart belongs......

touch in music...

He inspires me with his melody...
He makes me believe in dreams
He makes me flow with soul...
He make me think of every details in life...
He didn't care whatever it small or big...
He makes his life colourful and wonderful...
He loves all the way the world are...

and I love the way he is...
I'm very grateful to him...
and thank the lord for making him alive...
be given a heaven voice...
thank for let me know him...
the one that make me feel un-describe...
make me feel in flow with melody...
thank for everything you do...
have inspires me... thank a lot...^^

♥love♥

a distance can't echoes the very last melody

L...O....V...E

Love can fade, can break away,can be forgotten, but not replaced....‌

Kimochi tsutae ta iyo anata ni
Kono kimochi doushite kurushii no...-sigh-

ano...

anata no koto ga...
anata ga...

atashi wa anata ga...
SUKI,DAISUKI

等我放心 我才放弃

一天一天的过......
我每天都很想念你...

心终是有一丝很不甘愿的感觉......
可能...因为没见到你而不放心...

我每天都呆呆的...心也一样...
没见到你的那一天...
我人生没有了意义...空空的......

我不要这样的过我我生活...
我也不要忘记你...

因为...就是,因为...所以...不但...而却啦！！
hahaha...
没有啦...
因为...我还没有准备放手...

我心''咚咚''地响...等待明天...
我只希望...每一天的期望...不会让我失望...

怎么办？？

我爱你...可是爱不到你的心...
天的安排...不要让我们有 '缘'
我以为我能试下我的命运...
能造成奇迹去爱上你...
可是命中注定...我们不能在一起...

或是...
我太弱了...
打战了好几天...都还没抢到你的心...
我也输了几次...可是...
我从来...没想要放弃...
可是你一点都没看见...没感觉到吗？
也怪我吧...

我累了...
也打伤了我的心...
我要学习 '放弃' 爱你...
我要学 '放弃' 这句话...
看来...没那么简单...
因为我正在想...我能吗？
我会不会忘掉这感觉....
我会不会为你而哭...

和...
我的承诺呢?

new brother/sister

yeah~
mommy will born a new child again
very excited...
but have to wait until June...
then the baby born....
hmm...is it a boy...or a girl...???
who know...
just very exciting only...
waiting and hoping....

but...as a sister...
got a very responsible job to do...
never mind...
at least...my brother/sister safely born...
Unsubscribe feeling...

love me if u do...

love me without fear
trust me without wandering
love me without restrictions
want me without demand
accept me how I am
A LOVE LIKE THAT WILL BE EXTERNAL

简单的爱

''我爱你''

''永远爱你''

可是...

这份爱...我能

不要放弃吗?

不要忘记吗?

它可不可以...永远得存在我心中...

坚持得占领了我心100%的位子...

永远不离开...

''我永远爱你''

这话...能不要伤我的心...

我能承诺吗?

_hurting_

feeling very hurt now...
because of jealousy...I think...
and...of course...
because...I'm useless in my love...
I'm a big failure...
why can't I be someone else...
someone that he knew...

I'm thinking maybe...
I don't get the chance to do my 'plan'
maybe...I have to face the reality now...
but I don't want NOW!!! I'll keeping try my courage
hoping somebody move first...
because...if no one move...then...
''game ruins...you fools...''

it depends...

nobody can help you in love trouble...
they just can be your adviser...

nobody can created a miracle...
it depend who start the move...

nobody can cure the love inside you...
courage is the way if you want to...

nobody know the way to the future...
when it will be a mystery forever...

nobody can help me to think a way...
I will go with a never-end plans...

i wouldn't give up until that day

''why u didn't want to give up...you already know that you two can't be together...''

I said''it not the right time yet...I just waiting for miracle to happen...sometimes...it depends on who to start the move and I won't give up''

I know from the beginning...
start from very seconds I love him...
I know we not meant to be together...
It call faith...
but I want to try to break the rules...
If I don't try...
how I would know...
and I was waiting miracle to happen to...
it silly though...

I want to try to confess my love someday...
at least...I done one of my 'to do-list'
I don't want it to be accept by forcefully...
I just want to tell him every thing...
I want he know how I feel...
even I will be rejected...
I'll take and we can became friends again...

but...if I been accepted...
no...I think it wouldn't be...
I'm just not perfect for him...
it my scene...
but...deep in side...
I would be glad if he do...
from his bottom of his heart..
and no regret...

so...I waiting for future...I won't give up...
not yet...not now...
because...I know that day will happen...
when a miracle pass...

_happy_

today...happen MIRACLE...(maybe)
saw him like 4 times...

the first time when 45 mins recess...
and then...and then...
saw him...don't want to explain so much...
he just beside us only...

the second time when...
we back from 20 mins recess...
saw him run and carrying a small+white bag-pack...
don't know whose...

the third time when it turn out to be evening...
went to do my project...SEJ and GEO...
then...he go upstairs...
so hard-working boy... :D

and the last time is...
ugh...
well...sorry to disappoint you all...
it will keep secret in my heart....
and it will longer stay in there...

~poem~

I'll always be beside you
until the very end
cheering you to be happy always
and being your best friends
I'll smile when saw you smile
and feel all the pain you do
if you cry a single little tear
I'll promise I will follow you

(original created by me)

my un - accomplish things

I would try to move on...
hope our relationship will become better...

I would work harder...
to make myself perfect...

I would pray for you...
give you the strength every day...

I would secretly fall in love with you...
that you wouldn't know until the end...

I would love to say...''HI''
when we first time meet...

so...I would keep on moving...
moving on...
until...we got the chance to face each other...
until...I have a courage to say the word...
until...you will smile shining every day...

emo

lately...
getting myself into an emo world...
very emo in home...
because...everyday cry...
luckily...
didn't go very emo in school...
very happy...
bacause...waiting the right time to see him...

who taught me the emo word?
I think is him...
so...I like following his step...
and when the end...
I need to change...to=> no emo person...

sometimes...feels emo...
but...
not very much :)

i wish i can help you with everything

~I wish I can help you in everything~
~Sometime feel so useless when see you in trouble~
~even its a small matter~

~I care...I want to help you with my last blood dry~

I need to give up my hope

I need to give up my hope in drawing and anime...
though it hurt this way...
but I don't want to be an otaku...
I don't want be childish anymore!!!
I want learn...learn grown up a little bit...
got an adult feels...

I cant be this childish anymore...
I'm 13 now...until when I need to change?
I regret to love anime and drawing for the first time...
and it turn out like this...
If my hope is an artist or cartoonist...
I don't mind!!!

but...my hope is to be an successful doctor...
how can I be a doctor with an attitude like this...
I need to give up anime and drawing...
and focus on academy...

drawing can be my hobby...
but...I don't want to be an otaku anymore...
I don't want...it hurt...it hurt...
to think this way...but...
I need to change...

to change...
I put down my life for you...
because...I can't stand it...
the way there hurt me!!!
I need to learn to give up a little things...

a little by a little...
it hurt still...
but I can manage with a smile...
yeah...I cant be weak...

I...need...to...give up on...anime...and drawing now...
but I still draw...but I don't want to be an otaku...
I'm late to realize that...
and I regret......

I just don't want to be childish in an anime world...
and I need to be adult to love him...

slight of smile

你.......
带来给我的笑容...
带来了每一天的期望...
给了我一丝爱你的愿望...
每一天想念你的感觉...
希望你会回头看一看这份爱...

爱上了你的感觉
把我的心一天比一天跳得快...
让我一天比一天的想念你...
让我一天比一天更要看见你...
要与你 ''做电''

如,有一天我再没有这种...
疯狂的感觉...那时的我已经准备...

准备...放下了你...让你去飞...
找你的幸福...

但,我也会永远的祝福你...
和记得我所爱过的感觉...
和痛苦的失望... :)

hahaha...

tO: my EnEmIEs...

krIstI...I dEfInAtEly wIll nOt lOsE tO yOU...

a kind of hope

haih~><~

miss him everyday...
love him everyday...

if can really want to talk to him...
but i don't want he has a crush with me...
because...
I'm not prefect...he still can find a lot of girls outside...
so...I just want to be his company only...
or his adviser...hehe

still...I love him secret....
that feeling cant stop me...hehe
I think it weird...but it better that way...

because...
he will never know who is me...
never know I love him...
never know that I care about him...

it better for him...but...........
it is hurting my heart every time...
but I just want him to be happy with his lover...
and yet,secretly...I hope he know...

but...for his life...its better don't let him know :)

~love~

Loves feel good,

But sometimes its hurting us,

Sometimes we feel in hapiness of love,

Sometimes we feel in sadness of love.

Sometimes we feel happy,

Sometimes we feel sad,

That why we must strong,

To protect us from sadness.

Sometimes our heart hurt,

But its will be cool in a minute,

But if you always thinking of love that hurt you,

You will never happy.

So don't let your love,

In another girl hands,

Just let you love,

By your sides.

pieces of heart

something happen in a short 2 days...

first...get a quarrel with my best friend because of him...
haih~I wish...it done...NOT HAPPEN!!! it really stupid!!!

second...when we quarrel...got some few words that really hurt my feeling...
(><)

third...when a plan is not incomplete then it mean it not done...
my friends can't meet me...haih~really disappoint...you know...when you're excited about it...then it happen...feel like want to cry...

fourth...he and his sister quarrel...she(his sister)regret that has a brother like him...
Is he really that bad and quiet at home?
''home is a hell to him''

MY HEARTH BREAK TO PIECES NOW...

today is the day

today is the day that I will back to hometown
with a heart of full of joy,hope and miracle...

the feeling that can't be describe...
that how excited I am...

it will be great to saw my friends again...
It been awhile seen we had met...

so happy....
wait for me....I'll COMING

to love is nothing

to be loved is something

To love and be loved is EVERYTHING

quotes

~sometimes people runs away just to see if anyone cares enough to follow~

big apology for U

everday at FACEBOOK...
we chat...even he don't know me very well...
but it feels like we had been friends for ages...
he is easy to be friends with...

many topic we talk...
sometimes...
my mouth accident say words that hurt him...
SORRY!!!
I can't control it...

I give him my blog address...
he give me his(although I known it already because I stalk him...but I act nothing)
SORRY for that too...

sometimes...
I said some-not-very-pleasent-words-to-hear
because I want to act like you guys..
to became more cooler...but I know I don't want to...
SORRY!!!because I hide it from you...

I lied to you...SORRY for that too...

I done many not-good things to you
because I want you...need you and love you...
I'm telling white lie...
and now...I regret...because I feel like I'm totally selfish...

and sorry because I didn't give you my real blog address...
It better for you don't know I LOVE U...

~sorry again~

~cherish my life~

MISS MY OLD FRIENDS!!!

doki~doki~
my heart is beating very fast...
extremely HAPPY...
:D :D :D

doki~doki~
that sounds of my heart...
I FALL IN YOUR SMILE

poem of love

I write your name on a piece of paper,

But accidently I threw it away.

I write your name on my hand,

But it washed away.

I wrote your name on the sand,

But the waves whispered it away.

I wrote your name on my heart,

Forever it will stay.

'',he so adorable

he cute...when he smile...
he adorable...when he talk...
he funny...all the time...

that just his front life...
his back life sound like this...

he think negative when he was sad...
he always sad when he feels bad...
he grew fake smile to live...
and try to happy and live with hope...

he the bright water in my life...
he cry...I sad...
he laugh...I happy...

sometimes...
he just want what he does...

I wish I can talk to him...
even I everday saw him...BUT...
I don't have the courage...><

wish we known better...
I don't want it be so high...
just a simple chit-chat is ok...and be his good friend...

although I love him secretly...
but I don't want it to be true...
because...I not match to him...and
I don't want to be hurt....

Besides...I want him to be happy...
and I know...even I try...we can't not be together...
that the history...

CHEER UP...

哥...不要勉强吧...

-哥-

爱情不能勉强的...
读了你的信封...我的心告诉我...
'她已经没有爱的感觉了...她不爱你了...'
她说她得不到幸福...
她该知道你尽力的改变...
可是...如果她的感觉已经死了...我不知如可救回...
可能...要靠他吧...

你很伤心的叫我帮你...
本来我不要插手的...可是...看你真么爱她...帮你一下吧...
说实话...
如果她真的答应你...再给你一次的机会...

有两种可能...

一，她要再试一试感情...不要伤对方...

二，她心勉强她自己...她逼她的爱去爱你...
我会这样说因为...那封信有一点...'恐怖'加上她sms你的信...

不管怎样...加油吧...
可是如果有一天...发生了'那种事'
不要勉强啊...可能对对方也有好处...可是会伤害啦...
你想哭就哭吧...妹接你肩膀... ^^

加油哥！！！ ^^

给你的话...''有一种爱...叫放手...''

~kyuu~

不知为什么...心里总挂着一丝沉闷的感觉...
每当'他'悄悄地离开我的时候...
那一秒开始...一种熟悉的感觉出现...
那种心痛的感觉让我觉得...

永别了...离开了...已失去了你...

不但痛...还露了一面奇怪的感觉...深深地入进我的心窝......

现在...它出现了...因为他生病而回家...
以为...能等他去那边去吃东西...
可是...当我知道他已经回家了...那一刻,那一秒开始.....
它来了...如给我一种失望的感觉......

那一晚...心很痛...很悲伤... ('',)
可能我很关心他的原应吧...不习惯他不在的时候...
感觉才 '攻击' 的... >,<
不管酱多...

she has gone!!!

SHE HAD GONE!!! !!!!!! FOREVER !!!!!!

baa~zaar

finally bazaar over...
so tired...plus tired...
sorry...didnt post since 2 weeks...
my broadband...hmm...'died'
by *****...

don't say that thing...skip that topic
anyway...bazaar...is OK...
buy rm20 at our stall...and
rm?? for eat...

I didn't do my job at 1-4p.m.
cause our stall close early...

bad MOOD...this day...
so many bad things happen...
my all pics at computer...delete...
my all pics at camera...format...
my laptop haven't 'warenty' yet...
my B.band is 'died'

and most IMPORTANT...my check for pay the school fees...
is MISSING !!!!!
yesterday...find it...like 5 times already...
gone mad and start to throwing things around...

SHARON n BING2~
afraid of me...went queitly...
then ask SHARON to come to UR WAY to
drinks cool(even it raining...)

then...my cold mood gone already...
and came to school like nothing happen...
TODAY...still want to find that check...

ARGHH!!!
need to going angry again...

~still LUV u as a frienz

what happen to us??!!

to the person who know I talking to...

can U comments...in this post...please...

but...if u didn't even care about this post...

the magic friendship in every dust...

is no longer to seen...

between u and me...

I hope u understand...

--somewhere there--

Somewhere out there
beneath the pale moonlight
someone's thinking of me
and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
someone's saying a prayer
that we'll find one another
in that big somewhere out there

And eventhough I know
how very far apart we are
it helps to think we might be wishing
on the same bright star

And when the night winds
starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
it helps to think we're sleeping
underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
if love can see us through
then we'll be together
somewhere out there
out where dreams come true

'' lost ''

Lost feeling to care
Lost sympathy to spare
Lost patience to bear
Lost sense to keep fair

Lost endurance, to follow restriction
Lost peace, to stop frustration
Lost power, to avoid attention
Lost strength, to shun aggression

Lost courage, to sacrifice
Lost kindness, to be polite
Lost temper, to keep quiet
Lost thought, to be right

Lost anger, to control
Lost opinion, to give poll
Lost desire, to keep goal
Lost myself, to have a role...

AlOnE ~~that my feelin''

It is the first...and it will be the last...

lonely...

watching the time pass with tears...

watching the laughter of friends...

but nothing watching me...

that I'm lonely in the corner...feeling missed...

feeling very despressed...

I know I'm been forgetten...no more care...

but I tell myself that its not true...

am I lying to myself ?

I hope not...

A happy me in my friends eyes...

but deep inside...

A person who always hide her feeling...hide her tears...

easy to be hurt...but didn't tell anyone...

That the true me...

the one that always day-dreaming...

about...NOTHING...

and I want to change...

but...how...

even if I change...my life still is...me...

so until leave alone behind...

leave a pain of heart...

the step I will begun...

with happiness of a new life bloom...

that a life I going to archieve...

and I will not lose it...

L-O-N-E-L-Y

the first and the last time...

that will be my memories in my life...

' SS '...y hate it??

my friend : Sklivia y u hate SS...?
me : umm...hehehe...dunno...

SS...is a wonderful thing if you know how to use it...
but I hate it...not very hate...just don't like to SS...

I better love someone that I can release her/his emotion freely...
because when we move around...talking or doing thing...
sometimes...there are hidden faces that we never seen it...

sometimes...it ugly,it beautiful...n weird...
that what human got...

I like something that are natural...
so that why I don't like SS...
because...when need to 'SS' we need to pretend...(something like that)
plus...when we see our face ugly...we might hate it...
like me...

but I didnt forbid anyone love SS...
yeah...maybe someday...I try to learn SS...
I just say 'MAYBE'...
and maybe when I SS I didnt want to pretend it...
just be natural... :D

and lastly...I proud of them who know how to SS....

_the dove of pEAcE Y_

The white dove of peace is lost in darkness...
Wandering aimlessly, it drifts in the blackness...
No points of light it seek as it searches for the light of Road...
But, Hope is fleeting in the darkness...
Tears fall from its bright eyes of Faith...
It worries about the world...
It worries about life...
Faith in the future keeps it soaring,searching...
As long as that dove flies, a good future is certain to be...

A stOry Of U n mE

The fish(YOU) told the water(I):
"You can't see my tears,because I'm in the water.."

By thn the water(I) tell the fish(YOU):
"I can see your tears,because you are in my heart..."


My heart has follow you wherever you go...
But then you pretend didn't see anything about me...
What can I do?
to make u come back with me?
><>


Happily forever... But I will never forget my love in once....
Maybe after 1,2,10 or 100 years i'm still love you but you has gone
I will blessing you happy forever...
blessing you always..:D

==''

The things which I had in my mind..no words could explain..how, painful it is to be left behind..seeking for lights..

for the future of friends..no time..no time..no time Do you wish to see,the future,so badly..

It's no use,'cause when you left me,the whole world turned out to be..

The one with mistery,the one with unjustified things..the one which missed you in every path of it's life..

But now it's just too late couse..I've totally changed..

Do you think would you still wish to be in the future....get out of my sight..couse your the one To make me fight,living through this life is just not enough...

I gotta throw you out like you are desereved to be..to realise the mistery I've been holding onto my life..it is you who's each and every whispers come along in the nights..

can't sleep as I cry till I shed a river full of tears,as my eyes wonder around,to atleast find a fake shadow of yours, just to calm itself from all it has done..

生命的韧性

生命，让我看见了很多
于是我开始寻找
属于心的平静
也许是我的思考分式
让很多在乎我的、我在乎的人
受伤
口是说放下
其实我从来没有放下
也许是在那一瞬间
纯白的文字感动了我
文字的色彩
丰富了我黑暗的内心
为何生长在野外的小草
这么的有韧性?
即使被风残忍的摧残
被暴风雨狠狠地碾过
却还是拥有这么顽强的生命力?
因为它的根还没被拔起
也许我就拥有它这一点
固执的这点
我开始留意各种书籍
只要它们能让我的心感到平静
也许我在文字里的脚步是快了点
我以为
那对我不会有任何影响或改变我生命中的任何事
但是
很明显的
我
错了。
不只在文字里迷失
在生活中迷失
甚至
在心中
迷失
笔锋一转
我还是转到了
偏僻的小路
为什么?
难道我真的转不出这个不该是我的我吗?
也许是我的固执
让我迷失在最爱的文字里
是我的错
把心中早已淡却的包袱重行拿起
它
让我的脚步一直显得很沉重
不只我累了
文字也累了
被我反反复复的写出
一片片幼稚的伤痛
在这种悲痛的文字里流连
我有什么好处?
感谢
真的感谢
那些曾经伤害我的人
他们的手中也许
都握有一朵玫瑰
为了保护自己
毫不留情的刺伤别人
但是
我们却在这些伤害中学习成长
感谢玫瑰有刺
它的刺让人瞬间醒悟
原来
你想给我的是这个
谢谢伤害
让我成长
我已不再是温室里的小花了
不管
未来会度过多少场暴风雨
我相信
扎实的根会为我带来彩虹
唱的是寂寞
哭的是快乐
原来我找到了一种幸福
一种单纯的幸福
属于我的小小感动
和
天真的勇敢

Finally!!!
exam over...yay...
I can back to my hometown for 2 weeks...
WHAO...
miss my old friends...
and my new friends too...XP

错了不能返回了

为什么一切不能重新来过？
为什么要把自己做到这么辛苦？
为什么这次的战争不停下来？

难道我们真的需要演下去吗？
我演了...演到很累很辛苦...
如果能逃辟的话...就好了
可是,自己知道 ''逃得了一时,逃不了一世''这句话。

埃...我真的真的很怕有一天不知要帮谁？
正方还是反方...
我也很害怕自己是个骗子...出卖朋友的人...
我真的不希望有一天会发生''战争''这两个字..

我自己都受到深深的伤害..
你们感受到吗？你们没有...
因为受害者是我...可是
我又不是住角...我真么变受害者...

这次的战争...过去了...
我们能把它忘掉吗？
还是...它会在我们每个心里面留下了一割深深的疤痕？
慢慢地把我们的感情消失了...
只留下狠毒的心...让我们讨厌对方...
从之,自己的路自己走...

我还以为我能把这第二个家...
永远永远牵住手...永远永远不分开,不会断...
看来只是我的''以为''吧！

如果真的是发生的话...
我真心地祝福你们过个美丽又幸福的日子...
再见...

世界这样美丽...为何幸福不是拥有的？

我们能不能像他们...永远握着对方的手？

the sadness path (T^T)

This lonely road is becoming my new home
I do my best to reach the end and find my light
The path is blurred by my own heart
Help me find my way back
Back from this lonely road

I LOVE TO WALK IN THE RAIN,
CAUSE NO ONE CAN FEEL MY PAIN.
NO ONE CAN SEE ME CRY,
CAUSE TEARS MIX WITH THEM AND FINALLY DIE

I luv him!!!!

I luv him...

I really really luv...HIM...

kyaahhh---...I'm crazy about him!!!

??? you don't know who is him???

hehehe....simple...he plays piano...very...very...talents....^^

he plays the bestest songs I ever heard....^^

he cool and gentleman......and sweet...-''-

YIRUMA......I luv you...

by your no.1 fan....!!!!!!!!!!!!!-''-

thAnk yOU mUm...

thAnk yOU,mOm,fOr bEIng thErE...

whEn I nEEdEd yOU mOst...

thAnk yOU fOr bElIEvIng In mE...

yOU ArE thE OnE pErsOn I cOUld trUst...

And nO mAttEr whAt hAppEns

yOU ArE AlwAys thErE fOr mE...

thAnk yOU fOr bEing yOU

A mOm whO lOvEs

A mOm whO shArEs

A mOm whO InspIrEs

A mOm I'm prOud tO clAIm mInE...

mOm

I lOvE yOU...

On this mOthEr dAy...

And EvEry OthEr dAys

nOw...And fOrEvEr...

miss alot

-''-
miss the memories at Sipitang...
miss the attendance of my clubs...
miss my old friends and family...
miss all the things that leave behind...

but everyone got a life...
everyone got a dream...
that they need to achieve...
to became a successful one...

as for me...
my new life happen in here...
the school that I always dream...
has begun right here...

the sweet memories came...
when I move to here...
more walls to break...
to reach the goal of success...

my friends and the teacher...
I love as much as I can say...
every time I saw them...
it remember me in the past...

so where and when I would be...
they always in my heart...
protected them from hurting...
and hugs will filled around...

I love my new and old friends...
like I always done...
to attempt the success of...
friends,myself and everything....

''thE lIght Of my lIfE''

This poems I founded in my ''secret diary''
It was when the feeling happen...
With all my might,the poems is finished

In the darkness,
I found your light.
When all was hopeless,
your beauty shown bright.

When I thought that I
could love no more.
You touched my heart,
to the very core.

You made me smile,
when I could only frown.
You picked me up
when I was down.

When all was lost
you gave me life.
You brought me joy
instead of strife.

Now i think of you
every day and night.
you came into my life
and made everything right.

i smile when we're together
and when we are apart.
the presence of your beauty
stops my every heart.

i hope as time goes on
you will see how i feel.
and i hope that you will see
that these feelings are for real.

I love you truly,
I love you wholly.
I love you completely,
I love you solely