~still LUV u as a frienz

what happen to us??!!

to the person who know I talking to...

can U comments...in this post...please...

but...if u didn't even care about this post...

the magic friendship in every dust...

is no longer to seen...

between u and me...

I hope u understand...

--somewhere there--

Somewhere out there
beneath the pale moonlight
someone's thinking of me
and loving me tonight

Somewhere out there
someone's saying a prayer
that we'll find one another
in that big somewhere out there

And eventhough I know
how very far apart we are
it helps to think we might be wishing
on the same bright star

And when the night winds
starts to sing a lonesome lullaby
it helps to think we're sleeping
underneath the same big sky

Somewhere out there
if love can see us through
then we'll be together
somewhere out there
out where dreams come true

'' lost ''

Lost feeling to care
Lost sympathy to spare
Lost patience to bear
Lost sense to keep fair

Lost endurance, to follow restriction
Lost peace, to stop frustration
Lost power, to avoid attention
Lost strength, to shun aggression

Lost courage, to sacrifice
Lost kindness, to be polite
Lost temper, to keep quiet
Lost thought, to be right

Lost anger, to control
Lost opinion, to give poll
Lost desire, to keep goal
Lost myself, to have a role...

AlOnE ~~that my feelin''

It is the first...and it will be the last...

lonely...

watching the time pass with tears...

watching the laughter of friends...

but nothing watching me...

that I'm lonely in the corner...feeling missed...

feeling very despressed...

I know I'm been forgetten...no more care...

but I tell myself that its not true...

am I lying to myself ?

I hope not...

A happy me in my friends eyes...

but deep inside...

A person who always hide her feeling...hide her tears...

easy to be hurt...but didn't tell anyone...

That the true me...

the one that always day-dreaming...

about...NOTHING...

and I want to change...

but...how...

even if I change...my life still is...me...

so until leave alone behind...

leave a pain of heart...

the step I will begun...

with happiness of a new life bloom...

that a life I going to archieve...

and I will not lose it...

L-O-N-E-L-Y

the first and the last time...

that will be my memories in my life...

' SS '...y hate it??

my friend : Sklivia y u hate SS...?
me : umm...hehehe...dunno...

SS...is a wonderful thing if you know how to use it...
but I hate it...not very hate...just don't like to SS...

I better love someone that I can release her/his emotion freely...
because when we move around...talking or doing thing...
sometimes...there are hidden faces that we never seen it...

sometimes...it ugly,it beautiful...n weird...
that what human got...

I like something that are natural...
so that why I don't like SS...
because...when need to 'SS' we need to pretend...(something like that)
plus...when we see our face ugly...we might hate it...
like me...

but I didnt forbid anyone love SS...
yeah...maybe someday...I try to learn SS...
I just say 'MAYBE'...
and maybe when I SS I didnt want to pretend it...
just be natural... :D

and lastly...I proud of them who know how to SS....

_the dove of pEAcE Y_

The white dove of peace is lost in darkness...
Wandering aimlessly, it drifts in the blackness...
No points of light it seek as it searches for the light of Road...
But, Hope is fleeting in the darkness...
Tears fall from its bright eyes of Faith...
It worries about the world...
It worries about life...
Faith in the future keeps it soaring,searching...
As long as that dove flies, a good future is certain to be...

A stOry Of U n mE

The fish(YOU) told the water(I):
"You can't see my tears,because I'm in the water.."

By thn the water(I) tell the fish(YOU):
"I can see your tears,because you are in my heart..."


My heart has follow you wherever you go...
But then you pretend didn't see anything about me...
What can I do?
to make u come back with me?
><>


Happily forever... But I will never forget my love in once....
Maybe after 1,2,10 or 100 years i'm still love you but you has gone
I will blessing you happy forever...
blessing you always..:D

==''

The things which I had in my mind..no words could explain..how, painful it is to be left behind..seeking for lights..

for the future of friends..no time..no time..no time Do you wish to see,the future,so badly..

It's no use,'cause when you left me,the whole world turned out to be..

The one with mistery,the one with unjustified things..the one which missed you in every path of it's life..

But now it's just too late couse..I've totally changed..

Do you think would you still wish to be in the future....get out of my sight..couse your the one To make me fight,living through this life is just not enough...

I gotta throw you out like you are desereved to be..to realise the mistery I've been holding onto my life..it is you who's each and every whispers come along in the nights..

can't sleep as I cry till I shed a river full of tears,as my eyes wonder around,to atleast find a fake shadow of yours, just to calm itself from all it has done..

生命的韧性

生命，让我看见了很多
于是我开始寻找
属于心的平静
也许是我的思考分式
让很多在乎我的、我在乎的人
受伤
口是说放下
其实我从来没有放下
也许是在那一瞬间
纯白的文字感动了我
文字的色彩
丰富了我黑暗的内心
为何生长在野外的小草
这么的有韧性?
即使被风残忍的摧残
被暴风雨狠狠地碾过
却还是拥有这么顽强的生命力?
因为它的根还没被拔起
也许我就拥有它这一点
固执的这点
我开始留意各种书籍
只要它们能让我的心感到平静
也许我在文字里的脚步是快了点
我以为
那对我不会有任何影响或改变我生命中的任何事
但是
很明显的
我
错了。
不只在文字里迷失
在生活中迷失
甚至
在心中
迷失
笔锋一转
我还是转到了
偏僻的小路
为什么?
难道我真的转不出这个不该是我的我吗?
也许是我的固执
让我迷失在最爱的文字里
是我的错
把心中早已淡却的包袱重行拿起
它
让我的脚步一直显得很沉重
不只我累了
文字也累了
被我反反复复的写出
一片片幼稚的伤痛
在这种悲痛的文字里流连
我有什么好处?
感谢
真的感谢
那些曾经伤害我的人
他们的手中也许
都握有一朵玫瑰
为了保护自己
毫不留情的刺伤别人
但是
我们却在这些伤害中学习成长
感谢玫瑰有刺
它的刺让人瞬间醒悟
原来
你想给我的是这个
谢谢伤害
让我成长
我已不再是温室里的小花了
不管
未来会度过多少场暴风雨
我相信
扎实的根会为我带来彩虹
唱的是寂寞
哭的是快乐
原来我找到了一种幸福
一种单纯的幸福
属于我的小小感动
和
天真的勇敢

Finally!!!
exam over...yay...
I can back to my hometown for 2 weeks...
WHAO...
miss my old friends...
and my new friends too...XP

错了不能返回了

为什么一切不能重新来过？
为什么要把自己做到这么辛苦？
为什么这次的战争不停下来？

难道我们真的需要演下去吗？
我演了...演到很累很辛苦...
如果能逃辟的话...就好了
可是,自己知道 ''逃得了一时,逃不了一世''这句话。

埃...我真的真的很怕有一天不知要帮谁？
正方还是反方...
我也很害怕自己是个骗子...出卖朋友的人...
我真的不希望有一天会发生''战争''这两个字..

我自己都受到深深的伤害..
你们感受到吗？你们没有...
因为受害者是我...可是
我又不是住角...我真么变受害者...

这次的战争...过去了...
我们能把它忘掉吗？
还是...它会在我们每个心里面留下了一割深深的疤痕？
慢慢地把我们的感情消失了...
只留下狠毒的心...让我们讨厌对方...
从之,自己的路自己走...

我还以为我能把这第二个家...
永远永远牵住手...永远永远不分开,不会断...
看来只是我的''以为''吧！

如果真的是发生的话...
我真心地祝福你们过个美丽又幸福的日子...
再见...

世界这样美丽...为何幸福不是拥有的？

我们能不能像他们...永远握着对方的手？